I feel like grade A sirloin shit-ake mushrooms. I can barely lift up my right leg at all and now im forced to use my weak acl reconstructed leg as my strong leg. i just vomitted up all the blueberries/cranberry juice i ate earlier. it came out so fast that i didnt have time to aim for the trash bag, and now there's a nice oasis of vomit sorbet on the floor. im falling more and more behind in school and mcat because my head hurts too much to study and when Im conscious all i can do is try to research prognosises on the procedure I got. i havent worked out in 5 days and i feel my body getting weaker, i need to do something fast. they made me sign a 'voluntary' resignation until I recover from these surgeries. my bank loans need to get paid...this is terrible. ok im done being negative. I can't lose this battle.. I'm gonna murk this stupid MCAT in july no matter what it takes. i can't lose this physical battle, i must keep my body strong, i must keep my mind sane, even when the world feels like it's going to implode on itself.