just when Im feeling like the world is getting to be a better place I get reminded how there's still so far to go on the road to self-improvement. last friday was tonys birthday and hoang hit me up to let me know he wanted to hit up temple. id thought that id written him back with more info but either I really didnt send him a text or itd just not gone through. either way id heard that he got really urked by that and was not trying to go anymore as well as have anything to do with me. danny's been the same way lately with thear and I, even when I try to hit him up via text he never answers. I think I need to call this dude. he deactivated his fb as well. it feels like Im losing the friends who mean the most to me sometimes. it always feels that way with danny. at the same time thear does bring up a good point that if youre really someone's true boy then they should try to understand where youre coming from and love you regardless of your imperfections. I know for a fact that there're many instances where something slipped my mind or I lagged responding but for every 1 of those times I did something positive for someone I cared about 10 times (or at least gave it my best effort). I'm trying to be accountable as a friend and really show the boys how invested I am in our friendship and yet it always feels like Im losing em. sucks. I suppose it's all just a test.