fcuken A, I think I have some sort of vitamin deficiency/infection on my nose. sigh. my eating patterns are so sporadic and scant these days. I woke up at 9.49 am at mikee's apartment this morning and smashed it to microbio lec only to miss the quiz and midterm review. luckily professor rutledge had mercy on me and was down to let me make it up. I feel like the world's falling apart and I'm not holding it down like I vowed to after last quarter. I'm tired of my feelings about the world oscillating. yeah yeah yeah that's life but whatever. can't my own life graph be like that of a pathogen and actually experience a stable rate of exponential growth? I'd even be content with some stationary phase. I don't know to what it is, I don't feel like I'm doing this shit to myself. I'm no longer the "yes" man that close friends would tell me I was 3 years ago, and yet why am I still in a similar situation. after this study/catch up/scholarship app-fest until 6 pm I have to help malia with some dance project (ok yes I agreed to help her with that), drive to sac to kick it with kvo/KO before jdubs grad tmrw, drive to sc to swoop pii koi for seagrad, go to bootysf for rehearsal/chillen which aka means I can't study much that day. life has never been so bitter sweet. In the words of Kazoo, "GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" . I need to figure out mah muhfucken life.